I've been with the same woman for
over eleven years. To this day whenever we're together people say we
act like newlyweds. We enjoy each others company so much and we're
not shy about showing it. We've seen every up and down a couple can
handle and a few that no couple could. Through it all we've stayed
together, leaning on each other in times of weakness. I've cried to
her when I was at my lowest and I've held her up when she couldn't
stand on her own. The love we share is magical, if I may be allowed
such a delusion. There is no woman on Earth or in time I'd trade her
for.
So I won't hold it against you if you
find it odd that I'm writing about our enchanted romance while she's
on a date with her girlfriend Tiffany.
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| My dear Elouise |
Yes we are a polyamorous couple and
we've heard every criticism that gets hurled at poly couples.
"Polyamorous? Oh so you're a cheater." "What's the
point of getting married?" "So you guys are swingers?!
That's cool!" "Oh that's just an open relationship where
you have sex with other people." Living in Virginia, part of the
bible belt where churches are on nearly every corner, is particularly
hard for anybody poly, nevermind a non-religious, African American,
poly couple with a bi-sexual female (bet that scarred a pastor or
two). Just trying to find another poly person to talk to about this
is frustrating because we're often so unsure about how someone will
react. So far I've met two other polyamorous people, both bisexual
women, in the Hampton Roads area and neither of them were locals.
We tend to ignore the ignorant and
allow them their simple explanation for the complex choice that
polyamory can be. We do have a good support system in our families,
surprising as they're all old school baptist, who love us and respect
our choices. When we dating Candy (name changed for her privacy) as a
closed triad, we introduced her as our girlfriend to our respective
parents. She was welcomed with open arms and, in my mother-in-laws
case, a bearhug.
So the obvious question is "How
did we find out we were polyamorous?" Well that's a funny story.
It starts out in 2010 when we were toying around with the idea of
having a threesome with another woman. We would talk about what kind
of woman should she be. Big or small? White, black, Asian or
something else? Tall or short? Younger or older? We discussed it
often and excitedly. We loved to talk about so much that we couldn't
wait to see each other to discuss it even more. Eventually we tried
what many couples who are venturing out of their safety zones for the
first time try.
We put up an ad on Craigslist.
We received various responses but not
very many genuine ones. We became frustrated over the fickle nature
of our responders (silly now we know but, bear in mind we were very
insular at the time.) Then my brilliant wife said the words that
opened up Pandora's box. "Why don't we just date a woman?
Together?" (This was before we knew anything about the term
Polyamory and before we knew we could date separately.)I initially
laughed her idea off but, that night I went to bed, I layed there
awake...and I wondered...is it possible? Could we really date a woman
as a couple? Could we have a girlfriend? I thought and pondered and
analyzed both mine and my wife's personalities for weeks after she
posed the question. I am a tall, dark skinned male with zero "swag"
with a love of video games, comic books, sci-fi and horror movies and
martial arts. I'm a very spiritual person but, not religious and I
have a natural disdain for being ordered around. Elouise is a sexy,
cinnamon-brown, woman who loves doing hair and is so incredibly girly
you'd swear she sneezes rainbows. She's very much into R&B, is
family oriented and loves to read. Where would we find a woman
willing to deal with such an odd mixture of styles?
Soon I began to question the integrity
of our marriage. Was she dry-cheating on me? Was she just after sex
with other women? What about me? Would I feel comfortable having
dates with other women? Would other women even be able to deal with
me? I won't leave Elouise for anyone but, does she feel the same? All
of these inner queries found their way into our nightly pillow talk.
"We have been through the worst stuff together. Don't for one
second think that anything or anyone can pull us apart. I love you. I
always have and I always will," she says to me, with a hurt look
in her eyes. I realized then that after eight years we had built a
strong love on a foundation of honor, trust and honesty. We put "Us"
before all else. We are a strong couple with a great relationship.
Maybe we could make this work.
Still not aware of what we were
attempting we put up yet another ad on Craigslist. This time we
received an honest response from a woman who we'll call Betty. The
initial emails and texting went really well. This wasn't her first
time dating a couple and she was eager to try it again. After maybe
two weeks we agreed to meet at our local beach. Me and Elouise
decided a public venue would be best if we had to leave in case she
was loopy. In retrospect we may have ignored warning signs. Betty was
not at all what she purported to be. She said she was a gamer to
appeal to me but in reality she played Grand Theft Auto 3...once. She
told us how she wanted to spend lots of time with us. We saw her one
time: the initial meeting. After that nothing. She refused to call
us, instead relying on texts which isn't that bad, a lot of people do
that these days, but if we didn't text her it was Armageddon.
Needless to say we dropped her cold.
Wasn't hard, just stopped answering texts. Naturally we're a little
discouraged about dating at this point. I'm stubborn though and don't
like the idea of quitting, even a near impossible endeavor like this
one. So yet another ad found it's way on Craigslist. The woman who
answered this time changed mine and Elouise's life forever. We'll
call her Candy because that was our nickname for her. Again the
initial emails and texts were promising. She was a funny, witty
woman, very girly which Elouise loved and a total nerd which I loved.
we traded pictures and talked about dreams and fantasies.
Then one day Candy and Elouise were
chatting back and forth and she presented us with a word: Polyamory.
So there was a term for it. Personally I was a little sad to find out
we weren't starting a trend but, at least we knew it wasn't going to
be a lonely road. Soon after we agreed to meet. We chose the same
place for the same reason. The red flags we saw with Betty we did not
see with Candy so we're hopeful at this point.
That was our first date but no where
near our last. We walked that beach hand in hand in hand for hours
just talking. We drew a few odd stares (Virginia is really
conservative) but no one dared say anything. Eventually we left the
waterfront and headed back to mine and Elouise's home being so close.
Once there we lay in our bed and just looked at pictures and talked
about where we wanted to go with this relationship. New relationship
energy was riding high when she left for home that evening and we
stayed up all night talking about it.
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| Out of respect for her privacy I've blocked Candy's face out. |
That was a start of three great years.
In that time we celebrated birthdays, went to family reunions,
introduced her to our parents (who were super cool with our new
lifestyle), she cried to us about her past, fought with us, made up,
opened up sexual avenues we never knew about, and grew as people just
from being around one another. My relationship with Candy was
different from my relationship with Elouise. Not less not more,
different. Elouise and Candy had their own relationship separate from
ours. Not less not more, separate. Of course we all loved as triad as
well. She was part our family. She had her own key to our apartment
and came and went as she pleased. We shared our darkest secrets with
each other. It felt so natural.
Sadly she had to leave the country
last summer so our relationship ended, on good terms but, with a lot
of longing and heartache. We still talk to her and we let her know
how much we miss her. She opened up a door for us that we never knew
we wanted opened. I don't know if she'll ever read this but, Candy
thank you for coming into our lives.
So how has it been since? Well stay
tuned I got some stories to tell you...
